I was wrong i want to take everything back....?

its crazy actually i wanted to hate my cousin, but now that someone said im nuts abd that its sick i realize how much i love my cousin.... damn i love her so much she is the greatest thing on earth.. how can i tell her if im not allowed to talk to her??never will i take someone else only my cousin... i wait for the rest of my life... like that guy in the leila and madschnun story, even so i didn5t kiss her like that guy but still... please tell me how can i tell her?